Scared (insert profanity here) less....

Ok, someone remind me why I am so stupid. Why did I want to waste my summer slaving away with piles of homework towering over my head? Why did I choose to spend EVERY waking moment studying the ionic interactions of amide side chains? You guys are supposed to be my friends, did you really want to lose me for half the summer? (Well maybe you shouldn’t answer that question; I’m not mentally stable at this moment.) The real fact of the matter is this…….WHERE ON GODS GREEN EARTH DID THE LAST SIX WEEKS GO? Come on people I have a HUGE, HUGE final on Friday, so huge I shouldn’t be writing this blog. But that is beside the point. I have a stack of note cards as thick my head along with 50,000 pages of notes to review. I’m hurting here people.

I can hear the delightful sounds of happy college aged kids riding their bikes, rollerblading, playing ultimate Frisbee (my favorite game). But, there is Megan, sitting in her room, butt glued to a chair and eyes permanently fixed to her chemistry book. Im not asking for much, I just want an A. Really? Is that a lot, I guess so.

Dear God,
Please, Please ,PLEASE, help me! I don’t know what I was thinking when I thought that I could actually take this class. You need to warn me in the future when I am about to make a REALLY stupid decision. Please let the earth shake/lights flicker, if I ever try to do something like this again. Please watch over me on Friday and help me not to curl up and cry like a baby when Dr. Putnam passes out my test. That would really embarrass me. Oh, and if it is not too much to ask, could you please canonize a patron saint of chemistry in the next four days? If you let me pass this test I promise not to kill anymore of your “creatures/kritters” for a whole month. I will also be nice to Anna and let her do whatever she wants to my room, without being a brat.

Megan
In all seriousness please say a prayer for me on Friday....Im shakin like a leaf.

Off to take an on-line quiz ;)

Ok.....Yea!

So, I realize I have been gone for quite some time…..were going on a month here people. I guess it’s a problem that only I face because nobody reads this anyway. The last few weeks have been trying for me. I have been having a pity party. I have decided to become more self reliant and motivating. I am beginning to realize that if I want it I have to do it myself. I thought I knew what this really meant but I has come back to slap me in the face and realize I needed a reality check. Chemistry is going well. We have moved so fast from organic to bio chemistry in a matter of days. YIKES! Its been very difficult for me. Like I said above only I can make the choice to rely on myself. I am in a learning process. I try to live my life as an example. This may sound easy for someone to do but I have struggled with it for a long time. I need to be more selfish at times and think about what I really want for myself.

On the bright side I am going home in TWO weeks! I have loved living in Marquette. Going home back and forth has taken a lot out of me and I am just ready to be home. My friends claim they haven’t spoken to me in months and want my humor back. Ahhh….I’m not that funny people. Whatever floats your boat. We are getting a new kitten, well, actually my sister is. Im really excited but I don’t know what my two other kitties are going to do. My mom didn’t tell my dad that we were going to get another. He was actually OK with it. My mom says he is having a mid life crisis. Could this explain the Dodge Charger? Oh well…..